𝗙𝗶𝗻𝗱𝗶𝗻𝗴 𝗣𝗲𝗮𝗰𝗲 𝗶𝗻 𝗚𝗼𝗱'𝘀 𝗣𝗹𝗮𝗻 🙏✨

So Saturday morning I was driving on my way to a prayer meeting at Calvary Temple in Winnipeg and I was feeling very troubled. I tried to just ignore it and turned the radio a little louder.

When I got to the prayer meeting, one of the prayer warriors read the following:

“Now My soul has become troubled; and what shall I say, ‘Father, save Me from this hour’? But for this purpose I came to this hour. Father, glorify Your name.” Then a voice came out of heaven: “I have both glorified it, and will glorify it again.” - John 12:27-28 NASB

When I heard that, my mind raced back to the truck and how my soul was troubled, and how I just tried to mask it. I felt convicted of all the ways I have tried to placate it in the past by wasting time on social media, TV, or movies. God even convicted me for all the times I would call a friend and share my anxieties, when all He was trying to do was get me to turn to Him.

I know that God can use that troubled feeling, that anxiety or overwhelming concern, as a divine signal to humble myself and turn to Jesus. He calls me to come and lay all my concerns at His feet, allowing Him to quiet my soul and give me the peace only He can provide. (Matt 11:28-30)

I know my soul was not troubled like Jesus' soul. Mine was not troubled to the point of death. But does that matter?!?

As I think about that, I am drawn to consider: what if it were my child with a troubled soul? Would it matter what was causing that? Would it matter how big or small it was? Or how good or bad? Would it change my focus on meeting my child’s needs?

**𝗡𝗢𝗧 𝗙𝗢𝗥 𝗔 𝗦𝗘𝗖𝗢𝗡𝗗.**

But my soul is troubled. It is troubled because God brought me out to Winnipeg to be an extension of His hands, His feet, and His heart to His people. And He is breaking my heart until I start meeting the needs of His people.

Yet, I don’t know where He wants me. I don’t know what church He wants me to serve with. And I don’t know how to pay my bills. Yes, I know I could get a job, yet I am a little conflicted because I didn’t come out here for a job. I came out here to be an extension of God’s hands, His feet, and His heart to His people. Although it doesn’t shock me that God would give me a job if I am in His will and blessing my family.

And in that, my hope rests in Him because part of humbling yourself to God is realizing it is time to just yield to God, relax, and believe that He can do what He has planned. He has told me to just get to work and He will provide the resources. So it is time to just listen to His voice and let Him guide my steps, my actions/responses, my words, my texts/posts, and my prayers. Simply watch and trust Him to put the points on the board. Watch His plan unfold, and as I am doing right now, simply tell people to “come and see” what Jesus can do (John 1:46) and let my life be a living testimony to what God can do

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